Where did 2010 go? It seems like not too long ago I was making my move to San Marcos, and here we are a little over a year later. Crazy. While the year has changed, unfortunately some things have stayed the same like my life.
This time last year, I wrote about how I continued to live the same old life even though I changed locations. My resolution for 2010 was to change things up and make things interesting. Here I am vowing to do the same thing in 2011. Things in San Marcos weren't bad, just uneventful. Of course I have no one to blame but myself.
I was too content on standing by and letting life just happen rather than being proactive, and I can't help but feel like I wasted too much time. What's frustrating is the fact that I felt this way last year, but here I am. You'd think I'd figure something out by now.
Honestly, I think part of it has to do with my need to move around. When ever I end up some place, I start thinking about my next move, so why establish roots. I've only recently realized how unfulfilling that kind of life can be. Yes, there's the adventure of new things, but the novelty wears off and you're not left with much. At least that's what I'm figuring out.
While part of me still longs for a transient lifestyle, there's also a piece of me that wants to stay put once and for all. Being back in Texas has had some benefits, like being closer to family, and I've enjoyed the chance to see them more often. This ability to reconnect with my family is convincing me to stay home for good, but I'm sure this need will pass.
Regardless if I stay in Texas or move somewhere new, I'm re-committing myself to breaking free of the doldrums and stop living a temporary life. Might as well start in 2011.
